Behind the smile((song))

  
  I see a smile.
  But I don't believe it.
  I see your heart behind

  it what are you trying

  to hide?

  Don't hide.

  Don't hide.

  Don't hide the pain.

  Don't hide the tears.

  Don't let the pain

  be locked up in the deepest

  depths of your heart,

  where you think no one

  can see it.

  I can  , I can , I can see it.

  I see the knife that causes you

  to bleed.

  Here I am.

  Take my hand

   and step by step

   we can walk through this

   together .

   Hey don't hide in the cruel shadows.

   Let me take you we can take this

   To the light.

   La, La, La, La,

   Don't hide behind a mask that you call a smile.

   Don't bleed.

  Don't cry anymore.

  Let the pain be healed.

  Let it be killed.

  So you can walk freely again.

  Na, na, na , na.

  Mhm, mhm, mhm , mhm.

 Jesus is the answer to your pain.

 Jesus sweet Jesus.

 Love is here.

 Love is here.

 Love is here.

Here we stand.

We stand united.

We stand together.

Forever and always.

We stand.

 

    

   

 

Don't shut the door

Please don't shut the door.
Not in my face.
My heart aches.
Don't lock the door
of your heart and leave
me on the outside.
Can't you just give me
a chance?
Rather then sticking this
sharp knife within
the depths of my heart.
If you shut the door,
mine will be the opposite
it will be open.
Open to you when
you decide to come back.
If you ever do.
Can you not love?
Can you not just accept me?
Accept me for who and what I am.

What have I done to get this knife within my heart?

Can we not go back to the love a friendship is supposed
to carry? Why? Why has this come?

Don't shut the door instead give me the key so I may come in.
Then we both can accept one another.

Please don't shut the door.

Don't leave a friend torn.

If  you wish not a friendship.

I accept it.

But when or if you decide to come back to me
with an open heart here I am.
My door is open.
You may cry on my shoulder.

Night & Morning

Under the night on swift wings
I dance under the starlight.
I look unto thy marvelous
sky's that were created .

I look unto thy master
and thank him for night's
blanket of beauty.

Night & Morning
Thy both come
with beauty.

By thy creator
that made time.

May I bring thanks to
thee.

May  the Night and Morning
Dance with beauty because
of life.

Oh Creator and Lord
the Night sky sings
with thy beauty.

The Birds in the daylight.
sing a song of priase.

Oh under the night sky
I dance under the starlight
on swift wings.

Don't walk away from me ((poem))

Don't walk away from me.
Don't betray me
leaving me with an empty heart.
If you sit there letting your tears fall down
and you don't speak.
The pain you feel inside
will never fade.
Don't you leave me.
Don't walk away angry.
Open the door
if you still care.
If you still want me
to be your friend.

Don't let the cold and heartless
whispers take you and drag you
into a dark abyss.
Can you really shut me out?
When what you truly want
is to be heard?

Don't let the sword in your heart
stab you deeper.

Let me speak truth to you
that will ease your heart.

Let the cruel whisper of the
dark and heartless wind go back
to where it came .

Why don't you open that door
and let truth come upon
your soft lips.

Surrender

I find myself getting up.

Then falling again.

Falling to my knees.

Because I keep trying.

Trying on my own.

Trying to break my own chains.

Trying to make a change.

On my own.

I don't take the white flag.

I don't Surrender.

I don't see because

 of  my actions.

 I don't see because

 I don't take that white flag.

 I don't gain sight.

 I lose it.

 It's like a solider

 whom is not thinking clearly.

 If the solider does not think

 and he panics he gets shot.

 Yet only it's like getting shot

 more then once.

 Because you keep getting up.

Then trying again and falling.

Because you cannot do it.

We are weak.

Instead we make

it complicated.

Instead of using

the simple key.

The simply key

is surrendering.

Surrendering

to the one

who is above us.

Simply saying

I can't do it.

Taking that white flag

and surrendering.

If we do surrende our problems to him

and simply say " Lord I can't do it".

he shall come.

He will always be right behind you.

Like the bible says " You will seek me, and find me when you seek me with all your heart".

He is in front of you, behind you, next to you on your right and your left.

Most of all he is in your heart.

God bless.

This is what I have learned.

But not on my own.

Jesus showed me. <3

Solider

He takes up his gun for another war.
He does not know where this day is headed.
He does not know who will live, or who will die.
It's just another moment to take up his gun.
To take a stand for all the precious lives of America.
He never had to lay down his life.
He does not know if he will surrivive
or if he will see his family again.
Yet he goes on boldly.
He tosses everything aside.
Accept what matters at the time.
Everytime he raises that gun he never desires to.
Though he keeps in mind all the lives of America
that he will be doing this for.

Bombs everywhere , people diying.
It's the battlefield.
Yet none shall be left behind.
He goes on protecting.
He goes on no matter what .
He fights tell his last breath.

A solider goes on  and does not give up.

He carries his gun that he never wanted.

He carries on boldly.

He goes on pushing aside his fears.

He acts.

He protects.

He fights.

In honor to those who serve us.

In honor to the ones who did serve us.

In honor to the ones who died.

In honor to my father who served in the gulf war.

I love you dad this is for you , and every other solider.

God bless America.
God bless you!

I dance ((poem))

I dance with the winds.
I dance with the sky.
I dance with the gift of life.
Life what is it truly?
Life is creation.
Life is how we all began.
Life is the sweet song of this Earth.
Life is why I dance.
Life is why I breath.
I dance in the morning sun.
I dance under the shadow of night.
I praise.
I live.
I breath.
I love.

She opens her eyes. ((poem))

She opens her eyes , blue sky clear morning.

Little does she know the cruel ways of the world.

Her innocence is treasure to my heart.

Her laughter is like a sweet song , on a sad day.

The way she looks up at me , with those joyful eyes

is a comfort to my heart.

She holds my hand , she looks to me for refuge.

She looks to me as an example.

I close my eyes and speak a prayer.

I say " Dear Lord show me how to be a good example to her amen".

She smiles at me and asks me questions I answer her,

to the best of my ability. She looks to me thinking I am smart.

I have learned some things along the way, but I myself am still but a girl.

We stand together as sisters , we stand with love,  with strength to walk

With each other.

No matter what.

I hold her close she hears the beat of my heart.

I kiss her head.

I whisper to her and say " I love you".

By her smile , by her actions.

I know she loves me.

She is a little girl, but has a beautiful heart.

Forever and always she is my baby girl.

But she is not mine.

She belongs to the creator.

Forevermore.

For my precious sister Kiera May Weiss.



When I first drew breath

When I first drew breath a new life a new born baby.
I lay there in my Father's arm's for the very first time.
I breath.
I blink.
I make noise for the very first time, I cry.
My mother with help holds me for the first time.
I am looked at , they say I am beautiful.
My creator looks down on me.
He smiles down at me and my parents.
Today I breath.
Today I dance with the gift of life.
I sing , because my heart is, at joy.
I breath.
But I do not breath alone.
I breath because of the breath,
of life.
I breath with friends.
With love.
With comfort for the hurting.
When I first drew breath there was a plan for me.
When I first drew breath I had life...

Alone (( poem))

You walk on a lonely road.
In your eyes you see pain.
You see blood.
You see despair.
Your problems make you bleed.
Over and over again.
You try to get up but you just land on your face again.
You are hit with an arrow , your troubles hit you again.
They make you bleed once more.
You want your heart to be free.
Your problems are like a poison ,
slowly killing you inside.
You want it to be over.
You think of options to free,
Yourself.
Like a knife to your throat.
Or, cutting yourself .
Thinking blood will help.
After you tried everything ,
You know how to do.
You see you have no ,
Strength.
You cannot carry on.
You cry, you scream.
You ask when will my heart,
Be at ease?
You start to look for answers.
You start to cry out.
But not to the darkness.
Not to any man.
But within the depths of your heart.
Under the night.
You cry to the light.
You hear about the creator.
You hear church bell's ringing.
You see the smiling people.
You wonder what makes them so happy.
I need to have what they have you say.
You are tired of feeling so alone.
Crying in the shadows.
Away , away from happiness.
When the church bell's ring.
You run there.
You start to look for the answers,
you have been waiting for.

You hear the preacher.
You hear the singing.
Until you stand, as a broken
Stranger.
You cry out.
You say how do I get this light?
You do not want to be alone, anymore.

Then you are lead to the saviour.
There is a light .
In you now.
You do not bleed.
You don't cry .
You do not scream.
You are not alone.
You are saved.

Precious gem

Precious gem you are to me.
you were a baby I held you for the first time.
You were born, and you encounter your first day of life.
You were sleeping and you were in my arms.
I looked at you and thought what a precious gem.
Baby girl do not change , your innocent heart is a precious gem.
Precious always be like a child.
Precious gem don't stop dancing freely in your heart.
Precious gem never let go of my hand.
Precious gem don't lose your innocence when maturity comes...

Dedicated to my little sister Kiera May Weiss she is my precious gem.

Let me be known ((song))

I am just a girl.
A girl who wants to love.
A girl who wants to live.
One who wants to be known.
For who she really is.
I don't want to be known for the girl who runs and hides her face.
I am a girl, who wants to be known for who I am.
I am tired of this mask.
Tired of trying to impress.
I am tired of rejection of the world.
I don't care anymore, so I cry out.
I cry out to the one who is called the light.
I close my eyes and pray , and I say let me be known.
In your image.
Let me be known for who I am.

Not a mask.
Not a dreamless girl.
Not a girl who hides her face.

This mask is not my identity.

Let me be known for who I am .

For who I am.
For who I am.
For who I am.
For who I am .
For who I will be...


This is based on what I have been fighting, don't let your insecurity's get to you.
Don't be afraid to show who you really are.
Don't be afraid to scream out when you are in pain.
There is a time to mourn, a time to cry.
Also a time to rejoice.
Take note of what I say.
Remember what you think of yourself, if you hide under a mask, it is only your identity if you make it that. You are who what you make yourself to be . God bless everyone take what I said into your heart.

Let everyone hear ((song)

Every day , every year.
Someone is crying.
Someone is dying.
Someone is trying, to find their purpose.
A girl is shaking in fear of her parents because they hurt her everyday.
Whoa, let the nations hear that there is hope .
There is peace.
There is love.
There is rest.
There is a name.
That name is Jesus.
But that is not just any name.
Healer he is.
Light he is .
The one who bleed for the sake of man.
Oh let the nations hear .
Let little girls hear.
Let lonely old men hear.
Let people of every kind hear.
Jesus is the light.
Come to the light.
He is calling , calling you .
Calling you to a better place.
He says I have so much more for you then this.
Come to me.
Come to me.
Come to the light.
You will have life.
You will never again drown in sorrow like you do now.
Christ is the only way.
Yeah let the nations hear.
Let the nations sing your name.
Tell the end of the age.
Let the nations hear.





Under the night sky

Under the night sky I look at you.
I see your tears.
I look at you as if I can see your very heart.
You are not alright.
In the midst of night it seems endless.
Within a lost and lonely heart.
Your face looks like you have faced death numerous times.
But there is light in this night.
A light that never ends.
Never fades.
Never shall you feel the terror you do now.
How hard can it be oh broken one?
Why don't you come to the love, the true love the light.
Cannot love fight your despair and win?
Which is easier to give in to the death you are facing?
Or to come to the light where you shall live?
Just simply come,  how hard can it be?
Under the night sky I see the lost and lonely.
The ones who are facing death everyday.
The ones who are  growing weary of their pain.
The ones who have been hiding afraid.
Afraid of what will happen.
Under the shadow of night I see a light.
I see the love.
I see peace.

A stolen heart (( preview of a story I am going to write ))

Passage from a stolen heart.

I stand outside beneath the  the the night sky and I think of how we used to be.

The love that was there , was no more.

You said you would love me.

Now you are out of my life forever.

I miss the way you held me.

But you changed and let the beauty of another women pursue you.

You stole my heart, but then you ripped it  out.

This is a love story I am going to write and once I write it I am going to post it up here.

That was a preview of it :)

Abortion it's a heartbreaking thing what is it to you?

The baby opens it's eyes for the first time the mother looks at it, and says " I am not ready for this"
The Doctor takes the baby, the baby sees the needle.

The babies point of view.
What is this sharp thing?
Ow!! Why am I feeling pain?
Why is everything go black...

The baby opened it's eyes for the first time, only to be closed again.
Yet they will never get to open again, or experience the love of it's mother.
The love was never there.
The mother only thought of herself.
Even if she claims she did it for the baby's own good.
People today worry about a person killing an animal.
But they let ending a babies life slide?!
What has this world come to?

How would you like it , if someone just took your baby and stuck a needle in it?
How could someone be so cruel??
That was your own child's life!
How can you live with yourself.
That baby was a creation.
That baby was innocent.
It barley lived an hour and everything goes black.

If you were not ready for this baby, why have children at all?
Why did you not think?

What does this due to god's heart?
He hears the scream of his new creation and you just throw it away??

Everyone what do you think of Abortion? I am not going to suger coat this I think it's wrong.
Truth be told , by fact it's wrong.
Wether we believe it or not.
Comment on this post and tell me what you think I would like to see what you have to say.

In this world ((song))

This world, this day .
There is despair.
There is a little girl crying.
Because her parents tell her, she is not good enough.
In this world, parents go against their children.
Children against their father and mother's, telling them how they failed raising them.
There is a child without a home.
There is a lonely old man , who lost his wife.
There is a solider who never came home due to the cruel guns of war.
Oh, this world, is changing around us.
If I had it my way I would stop every tear that was shed.
I would take in every little boy and every little girl who did not have a home.
I would take the shot for a solider.
In this world this day , there is hope.
There is light.
There is not just despair and blood shed.
Mmm, mmm, woah, woah, woah, yeah.
Another day , another week passes, another year.
If only the world would dig a little deeper.
Go beyound the blood, beyound the pain the despair, the darkness.
They would have the strength to carry on.
They would see the past the sharp knife in their heart.
They would see in this world, in this pain, there is the light.
The light that was there before time. Before all the blood, the dreams shatterd, the choices of mankind.
Oh, I hold my head and heart held high, I see the light.
I see a better day.
In this world, this day, this week, this year. I see it now.
I see it now.
I see it now.
In this world.
Woah .

Here I am

I love because I am loved.
I draw my hands out to others.
Because I hurt for them.
here I am my friends.
My heart pours out to you.
You need me here I stand.
With hope.
With love.
With help, in everyway I can.
I never would be like this.
But there  has been a change in my life.
A great change.
That allows me to love.
That allows me to be here for my friends.
That allows me to enjoy others pressence.
I am here, with love.
I am here as your friend forever and always.
This is me.

Steps

Steps are everything when it comes to life.
What are your dreams?
Your choices?
Are they to do right in this world?
Or wrong?
Life is a gift.
A creation for mankind.
Life is what allows us to breath.
To love.
Life is like how you treat a child, if you treat it cruely, the child will treat you the same way.
If you take many wrong turns in life, life will not treat you well.
You have to take action.
But am I trying to look down on you?
No I have made mistakes in life too.
But this is just a warning.
There is hope out there for you.
That hope , is always there.
It has been since before this world was even here...

Does anyone care?(poem)

Someone out there  is losing hope.

Losing dreams.

So it seems .

This world is cruel this world is dark.

You ask yourself does anyone care?

Someone, does in this cruel dark world.

There is still a light  in the darkness .

The darkness that always swallows you.

This light does care and always will.

No matter what you have done.

It matters not how bad you think you are.

In the eyes of the light you are beautiful.

You are creation.

The creator sees you as a masterpiece,

His care, his love never fails.

People can care for you.

But will their love be perfect?

No but the Lord's is.

Now and forever.

Long live our loving creator.

Reason

Everyone has a reason to be on this Earth.
Everyone is creation.
In every nation.
Let the nations see , that there is a reason for them to live.
Let the nations hear.
Let the nations sing.
Let the nations see the light.
Let them see that there is Freedom.
In this dark and cruel Earth.
Let people not be afraid to Breath.
Let people not be afraid to dance.
To sing.
To Be Free.
To see the light.
In this dark Cruel Earth.
By Jillian A. Weiss

River(poem)

A river of hope is flowing in my heart.
A river of hope.
A river of life.
The claws of darkness will not swallow me.
Because I have a river of hope in my heart.
Hope for the broken.
Hope for the mute.
Hope for the mourning.
Hope for the ones looking for a purpose in life.

Before I never had this hope.
The light is here.
Wiether we know it ot not.

But hope and action is what helps the most.

My story titles

Hey everyone I am going to list some titles of stories I may post on my blog.

What I would like you to do , if you are willing is to comment on this post and tell me which story title you like the best. Thanks :)
1.Mystery Lane
2.My Life
3.Survival
4. Memory Lane
5. When we were young
6.The last time
7.What happened to us?
8. I depended on you
9. You never knew me
10. A stolen heart

Hold me

Hold me when I am alone.
Hold me when I am in pain.
Take me I am your masterpiece.
You are whom I depend on.
You are the reason I live.
The reason my life is a dream.
You can have anything.
Why?
Because you are the reason I breath.

Dealing with bullying.

No one likes being picked on.
I for one know what it's like.
Will I tell you what happend to me?
No because that is not important.
This  post it to build you up not down.
To make suggestions on what to do.
In these hard times.
Now I am not going to tell you the obvious things that every teen knows.
But I am going to give you word of advice.

Lesson#1- Someone comes up to you and starts insulting you, simply turn your head, and don't listen they are not worth your time.
Lesson #2 If they keep doing it , say something about it don't let them walk all over you.
Lesson #3 If they really will not leave you alone no matter what you do, and you have done everything you know how to do in your power, go and tell a trusted adult.

Peace (poem)

Darkness in the world.
it makes people sink.
It makes people think
there is no where else to go.
You see nothing but sarrow.
You see nothing but mourning.
But in that darkness is the light.
The light of the world.
Don't let yourself sink.
Go and find the light.
Then you will not sink.
You will swim.
Run away .
Run away from the darkness.
Turn around and step into to the light.
Then you will shine.
Make a change in your life.
Make a change in the world.
Peace will come.
But you are to find that peace.

Nature

Nature is beauty.
Nature is the Earth.
Nature is where animials roam.
Where people breath .
Where people roam.
Where live is in ever corner.
But also where unhappiness is.
Where there is mourning.
Where darkness fills the air.
But within that darkness is freedom.
Within that mourning is comfort.
Within the darkness comes the light.
This is the Earth, where beauty lies.
But hate and darkness collide.

Love

Love is paitent, love is kind.
I love because the love that is inside of me.
I dream because I have a purpose in life.

Life(song)

Life is amazing life is a sweet song.
Life is a gift.
Life is precious.
Enjoy every moment of it  while you still have it.
Think about every choice make you never know how it will effect your life.
This is life, treat it will. Treat it with respect and it will respect you.
Never regret having life because everyone has a reason to live.
A reason that they are here.
They are creation.
They are made in god's image.
Don't give up on life you always have a chance to live life to the fullest.
mmm , mmm, mmm.
Jesus is the reason we are alive.
This is life.
Hang in there you have someone to turn to when things go wrong.
The name is Jesus he is where you can turn to
This is life, this is the gift he has given all of us.

Summer(poem)

Summer is the time of fun.
No worries no work.
Fun in the sun.
Time with Family, time with friends.
 A time where you can just have fun and be a kid.
 No school, no boring learning.
Just happiness, and freedom from the doors
of school.

Hero

You know anyone can be hero, no I am not talking about hero's such as super man or anything like that.
Anyone who has a heart for other's can be a hero, if you want to be a hero and make a differnce within a broken heart. You can.  You don't have to be the best at speaking, you don't have to be the best at asking questions. You can be a hero. But you have to really put your hear into it. If you just are looking for something in retrurn everytime, then why do it? No one has to  help others. Now when I talk about this don't get the wrong idea, I am not looking down on anyone. Everyone is beautiful. Everyone is what god created. But if you don't really care about it don't do it, because how wil you make a differnce if you don't care? Tell me what you think of this. Like I said this blog is where people can speak thier mind.

What the wanderers is about.

The wanderers take place , during the great deppression.
The story is about a boy who loses his parents when he was young, they died of the flu.
When his parents died as a boy he was taken into an orphange.
Then a few years later he is 17 and they still have him within the orphanage.
They still keep him in there because they think considering there are no jobs(because it was the great deppression) He would not be able to support himself.
But he is ready to take some steps and have a life of his own.
One  night he sneaks out of the orphanage, with some friends.
Planning to never come return.

What the story is pretty much about, is how him and his friends wandering from place to place
to find a life, a hope, and dreams.

The Wanderers

I lay in my bed, it is about 5 am right now.
My eyes are open not closed.
Yet another restless night.
Another night of dreaming of freedom from this darn orphanage.
I don't know how long they will hold me here.
But I am not willing to find out when that will be.
I need to leave.

A story

Here is a  preview of a story I am writing right now guys.

Friends

Friends are what make you happy.
Friends are for catching you when you are about to fall.
Friends are people that love you, when you get no love from others.
Friends are there to help, when you are diying inside.
Friends are what god gaves us to love , us and to be there for us.

Summer rain

Rain is coming down, coming down.
You see the water ,you see the clouds.
You see the beauty , you see the creation.
You see that there is rain in every nation.
But , there are storms everywhere .
Some are not pretty.
But they will end.
Peace will come again.

Hello

Hello Everyone, this is my blog I just got it set up today, You will find many, songs, poems, and intresting talks on my page , feel free to poke around.